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[21 Dec 2003|03:36am]
new livejournal because ive grown outta this one. carrieeee
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[18 Dec 2003|11:56pm]
geeeeee i made a new livejournal. cuz im tired of this one. hmmm...im making it pretty then ill give out the name <33
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[18 Dec 2003|12:05am]
i have 2 days of school left before one hefty vacation.
i have the choice to wimp out on them or not because my mom thinks im a mental case, which i quite possibly am.
she gave me an early xmas present, fleece pjs, because she said i needed them.
i hope i can get up to go to school, but these pills are dragging me down.

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[16 Dec 2003|11:11pm]
its been so long since ive seen the ocean

"if i dont go tomorrow, then i wont go ever again"
this is lame
and so am i
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[16 Dec 2003|05:02pm]
im making a filter for this time in my life because certain things cant be told to the whole public. if you really care about my whiney life then comment. and i might add you to the filter...

for now, marie is the only one can view the entries.
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[15 Dec 2003|02:31am]
i've gotten used to putting on that "i could careless face" and i want to do better so badly but it just isnt coming so easily for me anymore. I have stuff to do other than homework, so i let things that should be priority suffer. I need to learn to time manage and also how to grow up.

i just had the weirdest feeling. i have a shirt, that has some saying on it and its for xmas and i wanted to wear it tomorrow. but not enough to tear my room apart. but i did and i was thinking about it, but i couldnt stop looking. i never found it and i feel really weird right now. i need sleep
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wow, its been a while since i made a subject [14 Dec 2003|12:22am]
my mom and i put up the xmas tree. its so pretty, im amazed by shiny things. i started watching the royal tenebaums(best movie ever) again on ON DEMAND(cable thing) and if i dont watch it by 3, itll be gone and ill have to fast forward again. to that i got...in an hour!

ps my house smells like a christmas tree...<3
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[13 Dec 2003|12:09am]
im testy and im unsympathetic. i've begun to become numb. funny how i want to run back to what i ran from. i scare myself everyday because i become less and less involved and more and more inverted. i slept three hours last night, because the rest i spent up, staring out the window. ive begun to wish i never changed things from what they were in eighth grade, i wish that i hadnt become more independant, although i wasnt able to feel for myself, i didnt feel like this.
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[09 Dec 2003|03:33am]
im sending this to my father

dear dad,
at this point, im content on our relationship. but everything is up in the air. Id like some clarification.
in some sort of elementary style, yes or no? because im ready to grow up. how about you? call me,
make plans sometime before my 16th birthday. because, i need closure. if you dont understand what
im trying to say here. just throw this paper out and forget about me....
love carrie

---although in all actuality, id love to send this. but im sure i would never happen. i wish i wasnt so afraid of my
own father.
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[08 Dec 2003|03:29am]
having a movie day with marie tomorrow
because we have


i made a new icon, and im proud of it!
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[06 Dec 2003|07:53pm]

summer is just 6 months awayCollapse )

did nothing today but lounge around and watch movies.
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24 hours of snow.....
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did nothing today but lounge around and watch movies.
<edit, i fixxed the pics>
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[05 Dec 2003|05:21pm]
My mother went and got the book for my permit today. Im really excited, because in about 7 months I will be even more independant. I hate having to rely on my mother to drive me every where. On another note, it is now December 5th. We are getting our x-mas tree either tomorrow morning or sunday. I love christmas.

city sidewalks, busy sidewalks
dressed in holiday style
in the air theres a feeling of christmas.
children laughing people passing
meeting smile after smile
and on every street corner youll hear
s i l ver bells, silver bells its christmas time in the city.

its supposed to snow tomorrow.
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[28 Nov 2003|11:43pm]
my mom bought me the santa clause 2
i love it so much i watched it twice.
ps. its christmas time in the city.
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[27 Nov 2003|10:20pm]
Music is your own experience, your own thoughts, your wisdom. If you don't live it, it won't come out of your horn. They teach you there's a boundary line to music. But, man, there's no boundary line to art.

Charlie Parker
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[27 Nov 2003|09:17pm]
as i walked in, the smell of turkey and apple pies began to overwhelm my mind with memories,
passed holidays, that still exsist but only in my head.
i suddenly realize its been so long,
since my family was more than 6 people at the dinner table,
but suddenly i realize something even more important,
i dont want my family to be more than 6 people at the dinner table,
because this is the way we are all happy.
being happy with less is better than being unhappy with more.
an hour,
i went on the porch to call my dad
and left a message "hi dad, its carrie. I am just calling to wish you a happy thanksgiving. Talk to you on christmas. bye"
im happy with that,
telephone tag.
now the definition of my relatioship with my father.
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[27 Nov 2003|01:48pm]
my mom found out that i have been stealing booze from her
and she was just like "I dont like what i see"
and then she went in the other room...i asked her if im grounded and she just said
....pure luck.
i just hope she doesnt realize i took the whole bottle of vodka.
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[26 Nov 2003|08:25pm]
Thanksgiving, again.
Funny how what it is that you are thankful can change so much over a year.
Funny how you can slowly stop caring but then one thing can change everything.
top 5
1.my mom being here
2.my friends
3.my puppy
5. chewing gum
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[24 Nov 2003|10:12pm]
my mom and i had a huge fight
funny how our relationship is rapidly deteriorating.
i wont have any family. AND its getting to the point i could careless

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[24 Nov 2003|07:19pm]
i have a sinus infection,
abby came down this weekend
my puppy is uber cute
and im skipping the pep rally on wednesday,
therefore i only have 1 class!
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[14 Nov 2003|09:47pm]
me and my dog are going to watch finding nemo in a bit
and how much of a social life I have!
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